It's been a while

Well hello there. It's been a while. Something like 2 months I think? I guess it's just that I found that I had no words. You see, I got fired. That Huge Financial Institution That Did Not Require a Bailout can well and truly go and fuck themselves. Fuck it. Wells Fargo. Wells Fargo Dealer Services can go and fuck themselves. I made a mistake, caused litigation, and now I'm a stay at home mother, which is what I always said I wanted except my unemployment was denied and the husband doesn't make enough for us to, you know, LIVE. 

I was doing ok. I cashed in my 401K and I knew that eventually my unemployment would start to roll in and it would buy me some time while I looked for another job. Well the 401K is pretty much gone and this morning I got the letter from the unemployment office saying my unemployment claim was denied because I was at fault. Well no fucking shit I was at fault, employers have to have a good goddamn reason to fire a person. Isn't everyone that files an unemployment claim because they were fired at fault? I know a company that had to close an entire branch of it's office and fire everyone because of mass embezzling AND THEY WERE ALL GRANTED UNEMPLOYMENT. 

DAMN THE MAN.

I'm pretty liberal. I've always been for social programs to help those people out there that really need it. I just never thought that I would be one of those people that needed it. It's crushing me. I have to go sign up for medicaid today because we can't afford $250 a month to add Noelle onto my husband's insurance and she's got to be covered. I don't even know what else I'm going to need to sign up for. 

I've applied for over 20 jobs. Nothing is panning out for me. Oh, except for Aflac. They emailed me wanting me to come in for an interview and then when I didn't respond they called me the next week. I never even applied with them then I got to the interview and they were like "why do you feel like you'd be a good fit for our sales position?" I just blinked at the guy. I don't. You called and emailed me. You tell me why you think I'd be a good fit. 

So, to paraphrase Banksy, I am a morose motherfucker. 

I'm going to go and cry some more now. Then I'm going to get myself together and go out and fucking use the government services that are available to me. Then I'm going to come home, put on my happy face for the hubby and my friends, and apply for more jobs that want nothing to do with me. Yay.

Cats for Sale: Price? I'll pay you.

I have 3 cats and a pug. My pug is fabulous and is never an issue (except for how much she loves to gnaw on my friend Lesley's elbow and hump her arm), but my cats are a damn nuisance. Seriously. The husband and I have been talking and we really need to get rid of 2 of the 3. I'm not doing Craigslist List, I'm not taking them to the pound, I'm not dropping them at the Humane Society. I really want a good home for them.  

Rosalie used to be a big problem for us. She was great when I first rescued her from the sidewalk in the rain in the middle of December a few years ago. Then she moved in with my original 2 cats and my oldest cat made her miserable. Rosalie refused to go out into public spaces and she spent about 10 months living in my closet. She lost weight, she was always alone. When she'd venture into public space, Grace would spot her and corner her. Rosalie lost a lot of fur. During this time, due to her trauma she would also pee all over the place. For the past year, she's stopped doing that. She's gained weight, she's calmed down, she's not food aggressive, she uses the litter box like a champ. Not to mention she's so sweet and so loving. She cuddles really well. 

Grace is the other that needs to go. Grace is my oldest kitty. She's 6 now- she is large and in charge. She's very territorial, but actually very sweet. One on one, she's probably my favorite cat to spend time with. Recently, in the past month or so, she's isolated herself into the office and hasn't really left except to go to the bathroom. Rosalie, she started pushing back when Grace would try to intimidate her. As a result of Rose pushing back, Grace has retreated and she's miserable. She's lost weight, she's depressed, she's spazy. She loves to be petted, she loves attention and loving, she just doesn't want anyone (human or animal) to see her being loved on and liking it. She will roll over and let you blow on her belly, she'll nuzzle you while you pet her. However, she'll never approach you for the attention and petting she wants. You have to go to her. 

Bella, well other than throwing up her food all the time from eating too much, she's pretty great and she's not an option. She stays with us for the long haul. She'll even lay and let Noelle pet her and grab her tail and not swat at her. 

I hate the idea of getting rid of any of my animals. They really are like family to me, but we've got too much going on. A baby, a pug, and 3 cats is too much in a 3 bedroom apartment. I refuse to just let them go to any random person, so I suspect it'll take a while before they do go to a new home. 

In the mean time I'm taking applications- WHO WANTS A KITTY??

Furry Friends

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I don't trust people that don't like animals. I especially don't trust people that say animals have no soul. I've known animals with a lot more soul in them than some people I've come across. The problem with having pets, you give them your whole heart and unless your pet is a sea turtle or a parrot, they have life spans much shorter than ours.

There is nothing like the pain of losing a pet. It's so much more than that word "pet". It's a furry friend, a companion that you spend your life with that doesn't judge you, doesn't hurt you, doesn't do anything but love you unconditionally. If you're lucky, you have a furry companion that'll even stay put in your lap and let you hug them and cry or laugh or just talk.

It seems like a lot of my furry friends have moved on to the great Furry Heaven recently. It's hard having them leave us, even when we know they're better off without pain and illness. Knowing they are up there playing with their friends with a never ending supply of belly rubs and treats. Green and sunny fields to run in that go on forever.

Just like losing any person in our lives, we selfishly mourn their passing. They are in a better place, we are much worse off without them in our lives. Animals, like people, help mold and shape who we are and make us better people for just having them around us.

So take a minute and cuddle your furry friends and hold them close.

Tigger

Claire (St. Bernard), Tiffy (my puggie), and Nicki Jr (Maltipoo)

Claire, Sasha (sexy pug), Tiffy (slightly smaller sexy pug), Tigger (cocker spaniel), and Ava (datsun).

The late great sexy Gizmo.