Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Let it go.

I feel like the times are changing. It's like that scene in Pride & Prejudice when Keira Knightly is standing on the edge of the cliff looking out over everything and the wind is blowing her hair around. I kind of feel like that. 


Sometimes things just fall into place. When this happens after weeks of frustrations, tears, and stress it is a glorious thing. I have been going a bit batty with all the craziness surrounding my parents and work, but now all of that has subsided into a bit of calm.

I have spent the past several weeks angry at my parents. Furious even. Looking at them, speaking to them all of it made me hostile. I'm not going to get into all of their drama here, being it's mainly their drama and not my story to tell. I will say that due to certain events that have transpired my parents have been borrowing my car since November and that I work in the same building as my mother so I have to ride to work every morning in my car with both my parents. Dad drops us off and then I go into the building and I try to avoid my mother at all costs. So basically I've been hella hostile right at the start of all my days because I spend it with both of them. 

I can't keep living that way and this morning on the way to work I found that for the most part the blinding rage was gone. I'm still disappointed in them and feel like I'm their parent, but I can't keep up that level of anger. It's bad for me. I'm trying to be positive. Surround myself with positive people and positive energy. 

Things are changing for me. Things are getting better and that's good. There will be lots of other stress to face that's more worthy of my time and focus. 

Huge Financial Institution That Did Not Require A Bailout even gave me a birthday present in the form of a sweet raise. All my hard work is apparently getting noticed and rewarded, things like that make the long hours worth it. 


  1. Hey Jess, I like your blog :) I found you over at the A - Z challenge. Just wanted to say hi, since I'm now following you :)

    I'm glad things are feeling better, it can be so draining feeling angry.

    Nikki – inspire nordic

  2. Glad your getting over your anger! I hope it goes away completely soon!

    I know it can suck to have your parents rely on you! (My dad moved in with me for a while years ago cause he was jobless and homeless and he was kind of a jerk the whole time as if I was still suppose to be the kid in our relationship!!)

    Being positive is good! Yay positive!!

  3. It's hard when you're angry at your parents or someone you're close to but can't get any space from. Glad you have worked through that. I hope things improve for you with this situation.

    Congrats on the raise! Yay!


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